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Baby
ye sayang.
tanya sikit boleh?
sure. tanyalah.
erm you sayang I tak?
soalan apa ni?
pleaseee.
yes baby I sayang you.

.senyap.

kenapa ni?
you cintakan I tak?
eh mestilah I cintakan you. kenapa ni baby?
if so why you sayang I? why you cintakan I?
hm because you're pretty.
kecantikan tu tak akan kekal lama. I'm getting old.
because you're smart.
I akan nyanyuk juga one day. as I told you i'm getting old.
because you're funny.
baby please I'm serious.

.laughing.

baby kenapa? before ni you tak pernah tanya pun?
I just err curious.
well curiousity kills the cat.
stop it! I'm not a cat. you ni banyak main kan?
yes. I love main. if you know what I mean.

.jeling. tarik selimut. pura-pura tidur.

okay okay. baby listen here. I love you.
prove it.
baby you nak lagi ke? I dah penat la.
I hate you.

.laughing.

you know baby I really love you. I just love you the way you are.
the way you speak, the way you smile, the way you handle me,
I love everything about you baby. I even believe you when you said bulan tu berbentuk empat segi.
well I know it doesnt make sense but who cares?
I just feel it. I really feel yang bulan tu berbentuk empat segi too baby. why?
because I'm with you, and I'm in love with you.

what if one day you tinggalkan I?
I wont leave you baby. I promise.

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air mata yang mengalir dikesat perlahan. percintaan itu terlalu indah untuk
dikenang. terlalu manis sehingga kesannya terasa sehingga ke hari ini.
tetapi itu semua sebelum. sebelum dia berlaku curang. sebelum aku dan dia berpisah.
sebelum aku bunuh dia. dan sebelum aku disahkan mengidap schizophrenia.